Thursday, August 30, 2007
This has got to be one of the worst moment in life. What is it with me and attachment to my students? Darling Matt is sick today and i think it's a bad omen. Today marks the end of my teaching career. I never thought that i would be so emotionally attached to this job. One which was only a source of income initially but later grow into a passion. It's not possible to describe how i'm feeling right now. But one thing for sure, my heart's crumbling.
I hope my decision to leave is wise. Although it's for a "short" one month, it feels like eternity. But this painful experience has taught me something, no one is indispensible. How cruel can reality be at times? I know that good things don't last. But it totally caught me unaware this time. I was telling nee about us being at risk of losing the job just this morning. Haha. And who would have thought that i would be faced with 2 options later. 1) Take a rest for a month 2) Work on alternate weeks. I chose the former of course, without much thought. There are others who needs this job more than i do. I went through a rollercoaster of emotions after that.
I was trying my best to hold back my tears while teaching. And i actually asked Javier if he would missed me since he's leaving for HongKong and Amsterdam. Naughty boy said no. This kid, he doesn't know it's my last day. And I having regrets for not saying goodbye to Ethen earlier. :(
How can i forget my darling Matt who's only 4? One who tells me he loves me every lesson. Awwwww...
It's the memories, experiences and people that i hold onto tightly. I refused to acknowledge the fact that i won't be going back to work anytime soon.
sprinkle some dust 12:49 AM